The Fabulous Night

Well, I could hardly hold in my excitement until 5 on Friday because I just wanted to see Steven so badly already! But I had to help in painting my room, a lamp, and doing some stenciling on my mom's new mirror. I even showered super early so I could do my makeup and fix up my hair and pick an outfit. I was actually done by exactly 5pm. I'm a loser.

This was my makeup for the day. I basically only used my naked palette (half baked and dark horse) and a black color from my 88 matte color palette on my eyes and Rimmel's airy fairy lipstick and some VS lip gloss. Looking all sultry and whatnot to go chill at his house and go to Outback steakhouse. That's how I do.

We sat in his room for a bit and talked and cuddled and watched Halloween 2. Then we were both super hungry so we went to Outback steakhouse just to have to wait about a half hour to eat. I've only been to Outback once before and I don't understand why because they have some delicious bread and they're known for some bomb steak and unbelievable ribs.

I'm actually quite upset that I've been missing out. PERO Steven asked me to be his girlfriend so now I'm pretty sure I'll be frequenting the place quite often. OMG.

Honestly, I'm super happy and whatever and told all the people that mattered in my life yesterday and today about it. And then we made it "Facebook official". Now I just want to delete my FB because I have always hated it and aside from laughing at the stuff people put on there I just don't want to have to deal with any drama that might come from having a relationship public on FB.

I just got my FB in August (I actually did have one at the end of freshman year but I quickly forgot the password and who knows if it's still floating around because nobody keeps track of usage like the used to do on MySpace) and now I'm truly regretting it. I HATE the idea that people I don't like are going to know my business. So you know what I do on there all the time? Troll on my best friend's wall.

But it is out there now and I can't just get rid of it like I wanted to do since like a week after I got it. Also, I feel like the older you get the less excited you get about being in a new relationship. I mean, I was super happy when I found out that Steven liked me (and for so long) but like what the hell do I care about letting everyone know that we're together?

I mean, when you were like 14 and had a boyfriend you went around telling everybody. You even rubbed it in the face of that bitch that had a boyfriend every week and couldn't stop complaining about how much she wanted the perfect relationship. Damn, she was a dumb broad. But aside from the excitement and glow you got from telling everyone, what was the point?

Now that everyone knew, they all had something new to talk about, concoct rumors about. People placed bets on how long relationships would last depending on the people involved. They would also guess who would be most pissed off about it. You know there were some heartbroken, spiteful kids waiting to rip apart your happiness by just letting a word or two slip about something that had nothing to do with the couple in the first place.

I won't lie. I have placed bets before. Let's be honest. I'm not going to pretend to be happy that the girl with the commitment issues just got with one of the sweetest boys in school. She'll be doing some things to wreck his mind. And who's going to root for the player guy getting with that intelligent cute girl?

My point is that as you get older you realize that letting your business out into the world only makes things harder on you and your loved ones. I admit, I have FB and twitter but when I'm having fun, enjoying my night I'm nowhere near a computer or my phone. I'm not updating the world on what I'm doing because I'm too busy doing it!

Can we just go back to those times when we would take out a camera and snap pictures while everyone was enjoying themselves and not necessarily posing, going to the drugstore to develop those pictures, and frame the pictures or put them in albums for us and those that we took the pictures with to enjoy?

I swear, all I see are people trying to hard to impress people that aren't even important. Me and Steven took two pictures together and then went back to enjoying each other. Those pictures went up today (or actually yesterday since it's already 3am), not right after we took them!

I can keep going on and on about social networking sites. I use them, sure, but I don't abuse them. My "friends" don't need to know everything about my life. It's just not necessary. Leave some mystery! People that went to school with me believe I am a sweet, smart girl that would never get involved with drugs or alcohol. They believe I am very innocent. And I am not about to prove them wrong.

Reputation is important. One day it will either get you a job or make you lose your job opportunities

I got so off topic! But here's Big Bang so it makes up for it.

The Night Before the Date

I'm so excited to see Steven tomorrow (well, later, really)!! I swear he saw me all senior year looking beautiful or a straight up bum in school but now I make so much effort so that my face looks amazing.

After my shower I decided to use Freeman's Pineapple Facial Enzyme Mask again this time. I couldn't tell a difference the last time I used it so I decided to wash it off with a wash cloth so I could at least get some exfoliation from it. It says it "restores radiant skin" but I don't know how.

I actually really like the little sample of Premier's Cinderella Mask I got from my February Glam Bag. It made my skin super soft, hydrated, and free of oil for a few hours. The only problem was that when I got home I noticed a zit on my forehead. Nothing major since it was making its first appearance. I'm not sure whether it was from the Pineapple Mask or the Cinderella Mask.

Anyway, aside from the mask I didn't do anything else special with my face. Since we are going out and I'll be doing something Saturday too I decided to straighten my hair. I love having my hair straight but it really takes a long time! And because of that I like to know that I will get the full benefit of having pretty hair by having people see it on the two days that it looks nice.

I don't know what it is but when my hair is straight it gets greasier faster. I really try not to touch the roots and brush it whenever I can but it still gets nasty by the end of the second day. I could still go out with it on the third day but I feel icky.

Not to mention that no matter what I do to my hair nothing will actually keep it as beautifully straight as when I first straighten it! I do use John Frieda's Frizz-Ease 3-Day Straight which keeps all the major kinks out of my hair but I still do need to iron the ends straight if I sleep without a dubee.

Sigh. I work so hard to make it look effortless.

What did I do today? Nothing, really. All the paint was bought late but my mom still wanted to paint her room like the loca that she is. I'm not that impulsive so I just waited for my fried bacalao and kept finding more cute blogs to follow.

That is something I did today! I began following lots of blogs that are interested in Japanese fashion. And I also started wondering why I keep a Facebook and a Twitter when it pains me to look at either of the feeds. I feel physically ill every time. I just got my Facebook in August and I just can't.

Also, is it possible to hire a woman to live in my house and thread my eyebrows? Threading makes it so my hairs don't grow back for a week (unlike plucking and waxing). Plus, it is nowhere near as painful.

I have nothing to talk about. =/ Steven was being super cute today when I talked to him. Oh! Since his birthday is during baseball season I have decided to get us tickets to a Red Sox v. Yankees game! So exciting. We're both Red Sox fans and we both love Dustin Pedroia so I can't imagine doing anything more fun with him. Plus, it is a Sunday game so if we could be there for the weekend just to chill in Boston it would be perfect.

I'm really just excited to see him tomorrow. And to come up with a nice makeup look. I have no false lashes anymore (I threw them away when I was moving) so I'll have to pack on the mascara. Maybe I'll do a very sultry golden goddess type of thing. That sounds so weird. We're not going anywhere fancy but I still want to look nice for him.

Isn't that so weird? This is a guy that was basically my best guy friend my senior year of high school (and who simultaneously had a crush on me) and now we're talking about being in a relationship. Isn't that almost every girl's dream? For her to date her best friend?

I do admit it is a bit bittersweet. I mean, I know about his past and his last girlfriend. I actually met her and thought she was very nice. I gave Steven advice as how to make his relationship with her work. So now whenever I'm with him I have a stupid bug in the back of my mind that wonders if he still thinks about her. Does anything that I do remind him of her?

It's just something that no one tells you about this kind of relationship. But I'm still happy. He seems to really be into me and has something new to tell me that he likes about me. So I guess unless either one of those change I don't have anything to worry about.