Colorful Makeup and Update

I haven't posted anything in so long. I haven't been going out for anything other than driving class and when I have gone out I didn't really do my makeup or come up with a cute outfit. Actually, on Saturday I went shopping with my mom to get some stuff for the house from Christmas Tree Shop and a gift for her friend for mother's day. We actually ended up going to JC Penney and were so surprised!

I have seen the new commercials for JC Penney but I didn't really take much notice since they have gotten a reputation of having cheap, no brand, or just plain ugly clothes and products. After getting my mom some new bed sheets, we went to the second floor where all the women's clothes were. It was so beautiful!

They had that giant red square from the commercials, sleek white tiles and walls, a Sephora booth under construction and mannequins front and center with very beautiful maxi dresses. I basically would've taken the dresses off the mannequins if I could. When we got to look around we say that there was a display for MNG by Mango!

There was this beautiful print for a top, maxi dress, and sundress. It was the first thing I saw and I was able to get the shirt. There was also this red dress that was very conservetive from the front but once you turned it around you could see it had a diamond shaped opening on the lower back and was kept closed by buttons. The material was so soft too! My mom agree that it was very pretty. She bought herself a coral colored shirt made of the same soft material.

I haven't taken pictures of either of the pieces because I have yet to wear them and I didn't think I would be doing a blog post. I think I'm going to be doing these more often since this is the third day I have hit the post limit on my tumblr account.

I do text posts there now, but I don't see how they're useful on here. They're just little blurbs of annoyances. I would rather not keep bad comments on here (except for that post about my ex boyfriend). I like this to be soft and pretty.

There really isn't much to talk about though. I've been trying to get back into gyaru more. I still have my EGG magazine subscription (I've had it for almost 3 years) and I still wear circle lenses when I'm actually going out. However, my makeup isn't very gyaru. I don't like doing a very natural eye or doing something of a panda shape either.

I very much enjoy colors, even though there are times that I hold back depending where I'm going. Today I went to driving school and decided to try out a look that I had seen prettylilmzgrace do. The video can be found here.

I am once again subscribed to her channel because I absolutely love her makeup looks. They are exactly what I like to do and she's an inspiration. However, I did unsunscribe after what I heard about BitchSlap Cosmetics and found that she still promotes their products. I will never personally buy them but her creativity is hard to find.

Usually, all I see on youtube is everyday/natural/simple makeup looks. They're basically the same thing recreated over and over again. I already know how to do a super natural eye on myself and how to pump it up. I don't need that. So I will subscribe to her even if I don't fully understand why she puts herself in such danger.

Anyway, here's the makeup look. I only used shadows from the BH Cosmetics 88 Matte Color Palette, Hard Candy Stroke of Gorgeous eyeliner in the darkest black, Decolog Who's in Dolly, NYX blush in Pinky, Too Faced Chocolate Soleil bronzer, Revlon Colorburst Lip Butter in Creme Brulee, and MAC Studio Fix Fluid in NC40.

I really need to get my hair done at the salon again. I want to finally go all blonde and get my hair super layered because it is very heavy. Straightening it leaves my hair looking like a lion's mane. I have so much root growth too that it's awful. -___-

I just realized that the last picture looks like something in a year book! LOL. I don't smile like that in school pictures though. I just look like that HBC that if she smiles she'll just make all the other girls look ugly. HAHAHA. I wonder how it feels to be like Regina George. Must be something like how Kyary Pamyu Pamyu feels.

Goodnight, though! I can post on tumblr again and that's what I'll be wasting my time on for the night!

3 YEARS WITH 2NE1! And current anthem thanks to my ex.

Makeup that I recently bought and liked

I don't even know how to start this post. I've been procrastinating to write on here and I'm not even sure why. I could've written this yesterday but by the time I was ready (all the pictures from my phone had loaded onto my computer) it was 2 am and I wasn't going to sit here until 4 am typing away.

Anyway. Since my life is basically at a stand still when it comes to excitement, I'll talk about shopping, music and some personal crap that is REALLY boring, even to me.

I just noticed earlier that I haven't been shopping for clothes in months and that made me a little sad. Maybe before the summer officially starts my mom will be willing to go out and splurge a bit with me.

Aside from that I have been shopping for other people and for makeup (which has also been neglected wtf). My package from honeycolor finally came it. I got the Dolly Wink No. 2 Sweet Girly and Decolog Who's in Dolly.

Neither of those are natural looking, which is a good thing. I have yet to actually wear them out so I think I'll try them out tonight when I go to driving school.

I also picked up some much needed makeup products:

I love these setting sprays by Urban Decay! I had the original all-nighter but decided to try this one since I do get oily on my t-zone during the day. So far I've noticed that it leaves a weird film on my forehead if I just spritz it on and don't put on foundation. However, it takes longer for my nose to become oily. I haven't tried this with my MAC foundation though so yeah.

This is my absolute favorite bronzer EVER. It is matte and dark. It is a bit pricey but it lasts forever, smells like chocolate, and gives me nice color without making me look orange or like I sprayed gold glitter on my face. I do like shimmery bronzer but only during the summer. Which reminds me, I'll be needing to find one pretty soon. Maybe I'll try MAC's mineralize skinfinish in gold deposit. I don't know. I'll see what people are raving about before I go out and spend $30 on any other bronzer.

Since so many people swear this is a great concealer for a low price I decided to pick it up. I think it's a bit too light for me but if I put it over foundation it covers the darkness leftover and adds a nice light that doesn't highlight the circles. I really like it after playing around with it for a while. I'll go pick up a color up and see how well that works alone. Maybe.

Now this stuff is beautiful. I got in Tiki since it was the only one there and it would be a nice highlighter. It is SO PRETTY and SO PIGMENTED that I can't believe how cheap it was. If I can pick up the darker shades I will definitely use them as bronzer on top of my Chocolate Soleil for that extra dewy shimmer. I've used it all over and it is beautiful.

Also, since I needed a new eyeliner, I picked up this last Hard Candy product. It's called Stroke of Gorgeous and it lives up to its name. It's basically a felt pen and it is very easy to control. The liner comes off matte and dark. It is so perfect. I would have picked up the new Maybelline eyeliner but I couldn't find it in very black (which is the only color I will ever pick up basic eyeliner).

There are so many makeup products that I want to try. I've already picked up all the Revlon lip butters that I wanted, and I have two out of the 4 or 5 color tattoo 24 hour cream shadow. And yesterday I picked up the Illegal Lengths mascara. I'm excited to try it because of the "fiber extensions".

I would love to try the Maybelline master precise ink pen, Volum' Express turbo boost mascara, and the tattoo cream shadow in the shades pomegranate punk, audacious asphalt, and edgy emerald.

Also I'm super excited to get my hands on the new Too Faced Summer Eye Summertime Sexy Eyeshadow palette. The color are so pretty and perfect. This is the first time I have actually really wanted a Too Faced eyeshadow palette. I mean, I already have the Naked palette and they do so many palettes with neutral or natural colors. There's the smokey eyeshadow one that I really have been wanting but I could get a deal on one of those on eBay for sure.

I honestly have nothing going on socially. I'm not going to tell the story about the guy I met because that turned into a bust. I think it was just one of those things that came my way to help me ease out of the break up and transition into a better mood.

It's not like I didn't feel like shit after the break up and while that situation with the new boy was fading. If anyone follows my tumblr they'll see my depressed days and then my recovery.

But I am in a much better mood than I could ever have been otherwise. I have to thank my cousin for that because she really wanted me to stay away from secluding myself for a couple of days. I don't know where my mind would be if she hadn't occupied my time.

I'm also trying to get in touch with some people I haven't talked to in a while. It's funny that people say that you shouldn't stop talking to your friends because you're in a relationship but I feel like some friends make that hard to do. Most of my guy friends backed off once they saw I was in a relationship. It really makes no sense to me.

I love all my boys but only in a platonic way so I have no idea why they would feel the need to get away from me. Most of them even knew Steven personally so it made even less sense.

Anyway I'm back to talking to a few people that I've been missing, such as my unicorn Kyle and my old texting buddy Andrew. It's funny. I actually confessed to Andrew that I was super depressed when I came back home from college and how I was probably never going to be friends with Steven again.

Me and Andrew have a weird friendship. During junior year and the beginning of senior year I wanted to grab his intestines, rip them out, and wrap them around his mouth to keep him quiet. He thought so highly of himself and never knew how to be quiet.

He was part of ROTC with me and while we were hosting a week-long "camp" for the incoming ROTC freshmen the week before school started he would go on tangents in front of the groups, especially the first day. We had to cut him off. I almost threw a chair at him.

I think after a few talks he got the hint that being a pompous ass to new recruits was not the way to get them to listen to you. He improved over the year but I was never close with him. It wasn't until after he finished boot camp and while I was at school that we started texting him.

He's just easy to talk to because I think he's always thought highly and kindly of me even when I wanted to kill him. I'm pretty sure he was aware of the times I wanted him dead because I was very vocal about it. I cursed him out once. Ah, life. So full of surprises.

Here's a picture of me in my AFJROTC uniform:

Medals and ribbons galore! While I was looking for one of these pictures I stumbled across all the pictures I took senior year. They all make me so pumped to go back to blonde! I loved how nice my skin looked with the honeyed color.

 Here's a recent picture of me. Out of all the pictures I took that day this is the only one that is even slightly passable so here it is.

I’m a Loser

I haven’t posted on here in such a long time! Mainly because I don’t do much except go out with my boyfriend once a week and spend the weekends either doing projects in the house or running errands with my mom.

I’ve done some shopping (and I’m still waiting on my Dolly Wink lashes) so I guess I’ll talk about that and maybe anything else that I go on a tangent about.

I was able to get my hands on the Viva Glam Nicki Minaj lipstick and the Ricky Martin lip conditioner (for my mom) from the MAC counter at Macy’s. Okay, usually I have a pretty good experience with MAC employees when I go into an actual STORE. But for some reasons, these people that work at the counters believe themselves to be some kinds of special snowflakes.

The first time I went there to try out their foundation (yes, I just recently started using MAC foundation and I am undeniably in love with it). I was actually assisted by a perfectly nice woman. I believe she was around my age and since I had actually done my makeup that day she didn’t treat me like a 5 year-old playing with mommy’s makeup.

I told her about my hunt for a new foundation since the one I was using was pretty pricey and did not have the finish I would have liked. She found the perfect shade for me (for the record, my cousin had been shopping with me that day and had picked the same shade; she credits her few months of cosmetology school, since she didn’t end up finishing).

After she took off my original foundation, blush and bronzer, she put the foundation all over my face and even replaced my blush. Now, I don’t know why my cousin did this because I do believe that this woman, like any other makeup artist with certification (in my state you NEED certification if you want to touch a person’s face with product), takes pride in her work, even if it just picking a foundation shade, but my cousin decided to announce, quite proudly, that was the same shade she had picked for me.

I smiled at my cousin but the woman seemed a bit insulted. I guess it was in the way my cousin had said it, but I don’t recall the words at this point. Anyway, I don’t have to mention that the woman did not make eye contact with me after (she had been joking around with us and everything).

This time when I went in to pick up the lipstick and lip conditioner I just got indifferent service. There wasn’t even a display for these products. They were just by the register and the place was pretty jammed. When I asked one of the ladies if they even had any in stock (I couldn’t see the cash register counter since there were about 4 women crowding around for some reason), the lady pointed over to the group and I said I would like both. She just turned and walked to the register.

I think the dumbest part was that even though there were two registers she waited for the register that was currently in use to be available. I have no idea what those 4 women were crowding about but it took a good 10 minutes for them to move along.

I don’t get this aloofness from these people! If I had done my makeup and didn’t just have a lip stain on I’m sure I would’ve gotten a parade. It’s such a pain.

The MAC counter is right in front of the shoe department at Macy’s. So after I bought my little nuggets of beauty me and my mom made a trip around the shoes. We had to stop at the Carlos Santana display. His shoes are usually always beautiful and unbelievably comfortable. I was able to buy a pair but I had to have it shipped from inventory because I wasn’t going to bring home the raggedy looking displays.

I wore them this Tuesday when I went out with Steven. I hate how I haven’t been taking pictures of my makeup or anything. I had just gotten back into it and now here I am being lazy all over again.

We also bought a pretty cherry tree from Lowe’s. Me and my mom wanted to buy a tree that would have pretty flowers. This is also the same kind of tree that was in front of our condo before it had to be cut down because of damage from a tornado. I remember how I would walk home from the bus stop when the weather started getting warm and the pink flowers of the tree would flutter. It made me feel like I was in a movie or something.

These are two out of the three belly rings I was supposed to get. They sent me the wrong third belly ring so I have to contact the store. That kind of sucks since the third one had pearls and pink Swarovski crystals.

This picture makes me so sad! The big container on the right contains my diamond stud that I managed to drop down the drain! And after an hour and a half I couldn’t change my nose ring. So now I probably have to go back to get it re-pierced or something because I have no jewelry in the piercing. This really was a waste of money. That diamond cost me $45 and getting my nose pierced again will be $25 if I go to the same place.

Steven said he would take me to get my nose pierced again so I’ll have to remind him and see when he’s willing to actually take me. He said he would pay for it too but I’ll take out my cash before he does. He’s too much of a gentleman sometimes and I love it.

Talking about wasting money, I bought the Prince Royce CD digitally and also ordered it off of Amazon to be sent to my house. I also bought two books and the most recent Bobby V. CD so I could get super saver free shipping.

Something else that is super exciting is that I’m going to see my favorite cousin on Saturday and we are going shopping! I will be going to Sephora and maybe back to that horrid MAC counter to pick up some things. I also have to buy my boyfriend his birthday present since his birthday is on the 22nd. My cousin enjoys shopping for boys just as much as I do so this will be a team effort to get him a nice gift.

The weekend and some purchases

I've decided not to post every day since I don't do interesting things every single day. But anyways, today wasn't eventful either. I just feel like I haven't updated in a bit so I'm going to post up pictures and talk about stuff that has been going on. So exciting.

Well, aside from getting my boyfriend back, I haven't done much over the past week and weekend. Friday I went to go see a musical at a local high school with my mom. I'm no longer in high school but my mom works as a VP so she likes being part of school functions. The school was showcasing Legally Blonde.

It was actually a really funny musical! The girl who played Elle was not much of an actress but she had a very beautiful voice. She's only a sophomore though so I'm sure that with experience she'll be quite talented in both areas. The guy who played Emmett was a really good actor and singer. His voice was smooth and genuine. But the guy playing Warner was not good at all. His singing voice was shaking and all over the place. At first I thought he was just nervous, but as the play went on he did not get better. I was glad that he only sang in two songs.

Friday was probably one of the last days that was actually nice out. I wore a coral off the shoulder sweater from Delia's, some dark wash jeggings from Pacsun, and some dark blue beaded sandals. I honestly believe that I can't wear any pants that aren't jeggings. I'm so short that they bunch up(even if I get them short) but I still love them.

 Serious, far-away model look. Kind of a fail.

Smiling because my baby makes me so happy.

My eyes aren't naturally green. I'm wearing the Dueba Puffy 3 Tone Green circle lenses. I got these with a few others from Honeycolor. I actually really like wearing these, even though I have to make sure to use eye drops right after putting them on or I'll have to use them every hour or so.

On Saturday, my best friend came over and she brought over a few presents for me, two elephant charm necklaces and a Captain America shield belly ring. I got my belly button pierced almost two months ago and I hadn't changed my jewelry yet.

It was such a mission to change that stupid barbel for a new one! We were there for 20 minutes until my belly button was sore and the piercing was bleeding. She actually came up with the idea to use pliers to move the ball on the jewelry. It was truly stuck! I found these flat, thick pliers that I use for when I make jewelry. After a little elbow grease the ball was super easy to remove!

She slept over and we spent our time talking about boys and baseball.

On Thursday and Saturday I bought some stuff online. So much for trying to save money. After some help from my man I was able to purchase the nose rings from Freshtrends.com! He liked the larger pearl and I liked the 2mm diamond so those were my purchases!

I also bought some false lashes from Honeycolor since I was still able to get free shipping. I got the Dolly Wink Sweet Girly and Decolog Who's in Dolly. Honeycolor usually ships pretty quick so I hope I get them in time for my date with my man on Thursday.

On Saturday, with the help of my best friend, I was also able to buy three dangling belly rings. She gave me the Captain America shield one and two other ones that she got in a variety pack. I just really wanted some pretty and sexy belly rings. Steven says he likes dangling ones better too so why not?

This super blurry picture was taken on his phone.

I have no makeup on and I was laying down on his back so he took this picture from below. He's smiling for real too =,] I was in mid-laugh. This was taken the night that I slept over his house and we weren't officially together yet. That was such a wonderful night.

I really liked my makeup that night but that was probably one of the worst nights in a while.

Urban Decay's Dashiki in the inner corner and Lounge on the rest of the lid. I'm also wearing the Super Pinky Blue circle lenses. My hair was super flat that day too.

The Fabulous Night

Well, I could hardly hold in my excitement until 5 on Friday because I just wanted to see Steven so badly already! But I had to help in painting my room, a lamp, and doing some stenciling on my mom's new mirror. I even showered super early so I could do my makeup and fix up my hair and pick an outfit. I was actually done by exactly 5pm. I'm a loser.

This was my makeup for the day. I basically only used my naked palette (half baked and dark horse) and a black color from my 88 matte color palette on my eyes and Rimmel's airy fairy lipstick and some VS lip gloss. Looking all sultry and whatnot to go chill at his house and go to Outback steakhouse. That's how I do.

We sat in his room for a bit and talked and cuddled and watched Halloween 2. Then we were both super hungry so we went to Outback steakhouse just to have to wait about a half hour to eat. I've only been to Outback once before and I don't understand why because they have some delicious bread and they're known for some bomb steak and unbelievable ribs.

I'm actually quite upset that I've been missing out. PERO Steven asked me to be his girlfriend so now I'm pretty sure I'll be frequenting the place quite often. OMG.

Honestly, I'm super happy and whatever and told all the people that mattered in my life yesterday and today about it. And then we made it "Facebook official". Now I just want to delete my FB because I have always hated it and aside from laughing at the stuff people put on there I just don't want to have to deal with any drama that might come from having a relationship public on FB.

I just got my FB in August (I actually did have one at the end of freshman year but I quickly forgot the password and who knows if it's still floating around because nobody keeps track of usage like the used to do on MySpace) and now I'm truly regretting it. I HATE the idea that people I don't like are going to know my business. So you know what I do on there all the time? Troll on my best friend's wall.

But it is out there now and I can't just get rid of it like I wanted to do since like a week after I got it. Also, I feel like the older you get the less excited you get about being in a new relationship. I mean, I was super happy when I found out that Steven liked me (and for so long) but like what the hell do I care about letting everyone know that we're together?

I mean, when you were like 14 and had a boyfriend you went around telling everybody. You even rubbed it in the face of that bitch that had a boyfriend every week and couldn't stop complaining about how much she wanted the perfect relationship. Damn, she was a dumb broad. But aside from the excitement and glow you got from telling everyone, what was the point?

Now that everyone knew, they all had something new to talk about, concoct rumors about. People placed bets on how long relationships would last depending on the people involved. They would also guess who would be most pissed off about it. You know there were some heartbroken, spiteful kids waiting to rip apart your happiness by just letting a word or two slip about something that had nothing to do with the couple in the first place.

I won't lie. I have placed bets before. Let's be honest. I'm not going to pretend to be happy that the girl with the commitment issues just got with one of the sweetest boys in school. She'll be doing some things to wreck his mind. And who's going to root for the player guy getting with that intelligent cute girl?

My point is that as you get older you realize that letting your business out into the world only makes things harder on you and your loved ones. I admit, I have FB and twitter but when I'm having fun, enjoying my night I'm nowhere near a computer or my phone. I'm not updating the world on what I'm doing because I'm too busy doing it!

Can we just go back to those times when we would take out a camera and snap pictures while everyone was enjoying themselves and not necessarily posing, going to the drugstore to develop those pictures, and frame the pictures or put them in albums for us and those that we took the pictures with to enjoy?

I swear, all I see are people trying to hard to impress people that aren't even important. Me and Steven took two pictures together and then went back to enjoying each other. Those pictures went up today (or actually yesterday since it's already 3am), not right after we took them!

I can keep going on and on about social networking sites. I use them, sure, but I don't abuse them. My "friends" don't need to know everything about my life. It's just not necessary. Leave some mystery! People that went to school with me believe I am a sweet, smart girl that would never get involved with drugs or alcohol. They believe I am very innocent. And I am not about to prove them wrong.

Reputation is important. One day it will either get you a job or make you lose your job opportunities

I got so off topic! But here's Big Bang so it makes up for it.