Why my boyfriend is amazing and little something to think about.

Tonight has truly been a great night! Just as I was sitting here tumblring and looking like a crusty mess, my boyfriend decided to drop by my house to surprise me!

All I heard was the door bell and I got confused. He hadn't been texting for almost an hour(this isn't really strange since he did tell me he was with a friend so I don't usually expect him to reply back super quick like I do) so I was completely zoned out by the time he got here.

I barely heard any noise when my mom opened the door and then he started coming up the stairs. I jumped out of my bed and caught him right before he reached the top step. I was so excited to see him that I just hugged him forever.

Now. My room is a mess. I have two baskets full of clothes and my bed sheets were in a crumpled mess because I just couldn't care less. Plus there were cups and food remnants on my knight stand. It was not a cute sight!

But he was here for 2 hours. We looked at the two yearbooks I had, freshman year and senior year editions, and watched Get Him to the Greek. It was my first time watching and it was very funny. I swear my boyfriend is something too perfect for words.

Aside from this cuteness I also wanted to blog about something I came across on tumblr. One of the blogs I follow, ammarmali, had a very interesting post today. It was very long and I actually did not have the attention span for it today. When I am too happy, I usually cannot sit and read political, social, or anything important for very long. Here's the link to his post.

But this was about a trial about a Muslim man named Tarek Mehanna who was just sentenced to 17 years in federal prison on the charge of supporting Al Qaeda and conspiring to murder U.S. soldiers. There were three quotes in the post, one by Glenn Greewald (which I believe is the person who Ammar must have read/heard this from), Tarek Mehanna's sentencing statement, and the last from one of Mehanna's lawyers.

I know this probably won't get to many people because my blog is not popular and most of the views that I get go to my first post or the post about the day me and my boyfriend got back together for some reason. However, I still think that spreading this story is spreading this story.

After reading Tarek Mehanna's statement I do understand his position and I have respect for the man. Our government does hide many things from us and sometimes we just let it slide because there is little we can do. But revolutions are striking up all over the world. What is stopping a revolution from starting up in this country?

Our government is supposedly based on the people but it is naive to believe that we get all the information we want and deserve to know. Anything we watch on tv, read in books or magazines, or hear from real people is censored to some extent. Not long ago the internet was in jeopardy of the same fate. Even if the internet has looser restrictions that television and printed media, there are things we can't seem to uncover without getting into real trouble.

I remember when I heard that anybody looking up wikileaks would have their internet activity tracked by the U.S. government. One of my ROTC instructors, a retired U.S. Air Force Master Sergeant, told me that he actually went on the website to see what the big deal was about. When I told him what I had heard he didn't even seem to be that alarmed.

There have been cases of the government tapping into phone lines because someone or something lead them to believe that people had connections with terrorist organizations. And these is not just conspiracy theories. There are videos, blogs, articles, etc. that can be looked up online.

I'm not going to get into much else since it is late and I do not have any resources in front of me to credit anything I've been saying. So I'll just quit while ahead.

Romantic, narcissistic, and pointless posts will continue after this post has been published.

I’m a Loser

I haven’t posted on here in such a long time! Mainly because I don’t do much except go out with my boyfriend once a week and spend the weekends either doing projects in the house or running errands with my mom.

I’ve done some shopping (and I’m still waiting on my Dolly Wink lashes) so I guess I’ll talk about that and maybe anything else that I go on a tangent about.

I was able to get my hands on the Viva Glam Nicki Minaj lipstick and the Ricky Martin lip conditioner (for my mom) from the MAC counter at Macy’s. Okay, usually I have a pretty good experience with MAC employees when I go into an actual STORE. But for some reasons, these people that work at the counters believe themselves to be some kinds of special snowflakes.

The first time I went there to try out their foundation (yes, I just recently started using MAC foundation and I am undeniably in love with it). I was actually assisted by a perfectly nice woman. I believe she was around my age and since I had actually done my makeup that day she didn’t treat me like a 5 year-old playing with mommy’s makeup.

I told her about my hunt for a new foundation since the one I was using was pretty pricey and did not have the finish I would have liked. She found the perfect shade for me (for the record, my cousin had been shopping with me that day and had picked the same shade; she credits her few months of cosmetology school, since she didn’t end up finishing).

After she took off my original foundation, blush and bronzer, she put the foundation all over my face and even replaced my blush. Now, I don’t know why my cousin did this because I do believe that this woman, like any other makeup artist with certification (in my state you NEED certification if you want to touch a person’s face with product), takes pride in her work, even if it just picking a foundation shade, but my cousin decided to announce, quite proudly, that was the same shade she had picked for me.

I smiled at my cousin but the woman seemed a bit insulted. I guess it was in the way my cousin had said it, but I don’t recall the words at this point. Anyway, I don’t have to mention that the woman did not make eye contact with me after (she had been joking around with us and everything).

This time when I went in to pick up the lipstick and lip conditioner I just got indifferent service. There wasn’t even a display for these products. They were just by the register and the place was pretty jammed. When I asked one of the ladies if they even had any in stock (I couldn’t see the cash register counter since there were about 4 women crowding around for some reason), the lady pointed over to the group and I said I would like both. She just turned and walked to the register.

I think the dumbest part was that even though there were two registers she waited for the register that was currently in use to be available. I have no idea what those 4 women were crowding about but it took a good 10 minutes for them to move along.

I don’t get this aloofness from these people! If I had done my makeup and didn’t just have a lip stain on I’m sure I would’ve gotten a parade. It’s such a pain.

The MAC counter is right in front of the shoe department at Macy’s. So after I bought my little nuggets of beauty me and my mom made a trip around the shoes. We had to stop at the Carlos Santana display. His shoes are usually always beautiful and unbelievably comfortable. I was able to buy a pair but I had to have it shipped from inventory because I wasn’t going to bring home the raggedy looking displays.

I wore them this Tuesday when I went out with Steven. I hate how I haven’t been taking pictures of my makeup or anything. I had just gotten back into it and now here I am being lazy all over again.

We also bought a pretty cherry tree from Lowe’s. Me and my mom wanted to buy a tree that would have pretty flowers. This is also the same kind of tree that was in front of our condo before it had to be cut down because of damage from a tornado. I remember how I would walk home from the bus stop when the weather started getting warm and the pink flowers of the tree would flutter. It made me feel like I was in a movie or something.

These are two out of the three belly rings I was supposed to get. They sent me the wrong third belly ring so I have to contact the store. That kind of sucks since the third one had pearls and pink Swarovski crystals.

This picture makes me so sad! The big container on the right contains my diamond stud that I managed to drop down the drain! And after an hour and a half I couldn’t change my nose ring. So now I probably have to go back to get it re-pierced or something because I have no jewelry in the piercing. This really was a waste of money. That diamond cost me $45 and getting my nose pierced again will be $25 if I go to the same place.

Steven said he would take me to get my nose pierced again so I’ll have to remind him and see when he’s willing to actually take me. He said he would pay for it too but I’ll take out my cash before he does. He’s too much of a gentleman sometimes and I love it.

Talking about wasting money, I bought the Prince Royce CD digitally and also ordered it off of Amazon to be sent to my house. I also bought two books and the most recent Bobby V. CD so I could get super saver free shipping.

Something else that is super exciting is that I’m going to see my favorite cousin on Saturday and we are going shopping! I will be going to Sephora and maybe back to that horrid MAC counter to pick up some things. I also have to buy my boyfriend his birthday present since his birthday is on the 22nd. My cousin enjoys shopping for boys just as much as I do so this will be a team effort to get him a nice gift.

The weekend and some purchases

I've decided not to post every day since I don't do interesting things every single day. But anyways, today wasn't eventful either. I just feel like I haven't updated in a bit so I'm going to post up pictures and talk about stuff that has been going on. So exciting.

Well, aside from getting my boyfriend back, I haven't done much over the past week and weekend. Friday I went to go see a musical at a local high school with my mom. I'm no longer in high school but my mom works as a VP so she likes being part of school functions. The school was showcasing Legally Blonde.

It was actually a really funny musical! The girl who played Elle was not much of an actress but she had a very beautiful voice. She's only a sophomore though so I'm sure that with experience she'll be quite talented in both areas. The guy who played Emmett was a really good actor and singer. His voice was smooth and genuine. But the guy playing Warner was not good at all. His singing voice was shaking and all over the place. At first I thought he was just nervous, but as the play went on he did not get better. I was glad that he only sang in two songs.

Friday was probably one of the last days that was actually nice out. I wore a coral off the shoulder sweater from Delia's, some dark wash jeggings from Pacsun, and some dark blue beaded sandals. I honestly believe that I can't wear any pants that aren't jeggings. I'm so short that they bunch up(even if I get them short) but I still love them.

 Serious, far-away model look. Kind of a fail.

Smiling because my baby makes me so happy.

My eyes aren't naturally green. I'm wearing the Dueba Puffy 3 Tone Green circle lenses. I got these with a few others from Honeycolor. I actually really like wearing these, even though I have to make sure to use eye drops right after putting them on or I'll have to use them every hour or so.

On Saturday, my best friend came over and she brought over a few presents for me, two elephant charm necklaces and a Captain America shield belly ring. I got my belly button pierced almost two months ago and I hadn't changed my jewelry yet.

It was such a mission to change that stupid barbel for a new one! We were there for 20 minutes until my belly button was sore and the piercing was bleeding. She actually came up with the idea to use pliers to move the ball on the jewelry. It was truly stuck! I found these flat, thick pliers that I use for when I make jewelry. After a little elbow grease the ball was super easy to remove!

She slept over and we spent our time talking about boys and baseball.

On Thursday and Saturday I bought some stuff online. So much for trying to save money. After some help from my man I was able to purchase the nose rings from Freshtrends.com! He liked the larger pearl and I liked the 2mm diamond so those were my purchases!

I also bought some false lashes from Honeycolor since I was still able to get free shipping. I got the Dolly Wink Sweet Girly and Decolog Who's in Dolly. Honeycolor usually ships pretty quick so I hope I get them in time for my date with my man on Thursday.

On Saturday, with the help of my best friend, I was also able to buy three dangling belly rings. She gave me the Captain America shield one and two other ones that she got in a variety pack. I just really wanted some pretty and sexy belly rings. Steven says he likes dangling ones better too so why not?

This super blurry picture was taken on his phone.

I have no makeup on and I was laying down on his back so he took this picture from below. He's smiling for real too =,] I was in mid-laugh. This was taken the night that I slept over his house and we weren't officially together yet. That was such a wonderful night.

I really liked my makeup that night but that was probably one of the worst nights in a while.

Urban Decay's Dashiki in the inner corner and Lounge on the rest of the lid. I'm also wearing the Super Pinky Blue circle lenses. My hair was super flat that day too.

He's Mine =]

My patience and my sweetness has paid off. We're back together. In his own words, "I want us. I'm being for real. No more stupid shit like oh I need to get myself together." Love it.

He sent me this long paragraph that I honestly can't get over:

"I miss you so damn much. That it's crazy. Idk what it is but I haven't felt this way in a long time. I'm like falling for you faster than I've ever fallen for any girl. You surely are different. I guess that I was so scared of getting hurt again that I didn't give you a chance. I think that I've never had a girl care so much for me that it got me a little scared. I do really care for you like crazy. I want you to be mine and I really don't wanna think about [ex girlfriend] and I don't want you to think about her either. She was my past. And as I see it you are my future. And a good future for us both baby. But I don't wanna be scared of love anymore and I believe with you I won't have to be :). You truly are a different girl in my eyes and I would like another chance from you baby?"

 

Happiness after a Hiatus

It’s been so long since I posted! But it’s definitely been a rollercoaster for the past few weeks. I am no longer Steven’s girlfriend but we’re still doing couple-y stuff.

We dated officially for about 10 days before he had a full on break down and told me that he couldn’t have a girlfriend while he still wasn’t over his ex. And you know what? I can’t even be mad about that!

I was his friend during the past year and he did tell me a few of the things she put him through. And the more I hear about it the more sympathetic I am. He is such a good person that he got taken advantage of. I can’t be mad that he’s still hurting. So, for now, I’ll have to prove to him that I can treat him like a king.

I won’t lie. It did hurt me very much to have him tell me (twice in those 10 days) that he only wanted to be friends. But I’m the kind of person to just let a friend grieve.

It didn’t take long for him to start flirting with me again. I slept over his house on Sunday and all the time we spent together was magical.

I can truly say that I am in love. It has been so long! But I know this is for real. It happened so quickly that I didn’t even realize until I was in too deep. It’s truly everything about him that makes me want to smile.

His laugh is the most beautiful sound. Truly, no song can compare. His smile lights up my world, more than the desert sun ever could. Everything he says to me is never false or backed by a hidden meaning. He is so sincere. He makes me want to never want to lie to him, to never keep a secret from him, to tell him everything about me.

How else do you describe this? Every time we talk I hope that he smiles when he sees my name on his phone. I hope that he looks through past texts and photos and smiles to himself. And when he’s out and about without me, I hope he sees something that reminds him of me and he gets the same feeling I get inside.

Oh, I am so mushy lately! I swear he makes me want to do all these things to just make him smile. I am not like this! All I want to listen to is love songs and think about our future together (even though we’re not even really “together”).

I think that says so much about him and me! Am I not proving him wrong every day? We don’t need to be together for me to show him that I will be chasing him and proving to him that he deserves the best. And even if we are together I would still do the same!

This is turning to be the most ridiculous post. Well, aside from all this vomit-inducing sweet stuff I am currently spewing(and may spew for the rest of my life), not much has happened.

I haven’t seen my best friend in a month. But I’ll hopefully be seeing her Saturday!

And I’m also on the market for new nose rings. So far I have two styles that I really want. Well, three, but I can live without one of them. I am currently after a diamond stud, a pearl stud, and a gold ring. The diamond stud is for the April birthstone(Steven was born in April) and the pearl stud is for me(I was born in June). The gold ring is just because I think I could look even more exotic with it. As you can see, there is no real meaning behind it so there’s not much of a point in getting it.

I’m looking at two websites. One, www.bodycandy.com, has the perfect pearl nose ring. It’s an Akoya pearl, which is apparently a high-quality pearl from Japan. According to this site Akoya pearls are small and perfect for bracelets and other jewelry that would need many pearls. But this is just a nose ring so.

The other nose ring from there is 14kt gold with a 1.5mm diamond. The diamond is quite small is made specifically for discretion, which I guess would be a good thing if I worked in an office or somewhere where body jewelry is frowned upon.

The second website, www.freshtrends.com, has a genuine pearl in 14kt gold and a 2mm diamond set in 14kt gold. The only thing that made me look for another website were the prices. Bodycandy has the pearl nose ring for $39.99 and the 1.5mm diamond nose ring for $44.99. Freshtrends has the pearl nose ring for $14.17 and the 2mm diamond nose ring for $48.99.

I would like a bigger diamond so I want to get the one from Freshtrends. 2mm diamonds from Bodycandy are about $80 by themselves. I was thinking about getting the diamond nose ring from Freshtrends and the pearl nose ring from Bodycandy but that would be even more expensive than buying from one place.
Plus, I really need some new false lashes and Honeycolor has free shipping until today. What a dilemma. I don’t mind spending $100 on nose rings and false lashes but I really want to get the nose rings I like the best.

I also have to ask the silly boy if he still wants to go with me to Fenway for his birthday. Get out of work already so we can talk! I just want to have enough money for everything.

Trying to be frugal is difficult for sure but I’m not going to be broke again. No!

The Fabulous Night

Well, I could hardly hold in my excitement until 5 on Friday because I just wanted to see Steven so badly already! But I had to help in painting my room, a lamp, and doing some stenciling on my mom's new mirror. I even showered super early so I could do my makeup and fix up my hair and pick an outfit. I was actually done by exactly 5pm. I'm a loser.

This was my makeup for the day. I basically only used my naked palette (half baked and dark horse) and a black color from my 88 matte color palette on my eyes and Rimmel's airy fairy lipstick and some VS lip gloss. Looking all sultry and whatnot to go chill at his house and go to Outback steakhouse. That's how I do.

We sat in his room for a bit and talked and cuddled and watched Halloween 2. Then we were both super hungry so we went to Outback steakhouse just to have to wait about a half hour to eat. I've only been to Outback once before and I don't understand why because they have some delicious bread and they're known for some bomb steak and unbelievable ribs.

I'm actually quite upset that I've been missing out. PERO Steven asked me to be his girlfriend so now I'm pretty sure I'll be frequenting the place quite often. OMG.

Honestly, I'm super happy and whatever and told all the people that mattered in my life yesterday and today about it. And then we made it "Facebook official". Now I just want to delete my FB because I have always hated it and aside from laughing at the stuff people put on there I just don't want to have to deal with any drama that might come from having a relationship public on FB.

I just got my FB in August (I actually did have one at the end of freshman year but I quickly forgot the password and who knows if it's still floating around because nobody keeps track of usage like the used to do on MySpace) and now I'm truly regretting it. I HATE the idea that people I don't like are going to know my business. So you know what I do on there all the time? Troll on my best friend's wall.

But it is out there now and I can't just get rid of it like I wanted to do since like a week after I got it. Also, I feel like the older you get the less excited you get about being in a new relationship. I mean, I was super happy when I found out that Steven liked me (and for so long) but like what the hell do I care about letting everyone know that we're together?

I mean, when you were like 14 and had a boyfriend you went around telling everybody. You even rubbed it in the face of that bitch that had a boyfriend every week and couldn't stop complaining about how much she wanted the perfect relationship. Damn, she was a dumb broad. But aside from the excitement and glow you got from telling everyone, what was the point?

Now that everyone knew, they all had something new to talk about, concoct rumors about. People placed bets on how long relationships would last depending on the people involved. They would also guess who would be most pissed off about it. You know there were some heartbroken, spiteful kids waiting to rip apart your happiness by just letting a word or two slip about something that had nothing to do with the couple in the first place.

I won't lie. I have placed bets before. Let's be honest. I'm not going to pretend to be happy that the girl with the commitment issues just got with one of the sweetest boys in school. She'll be doing some things to wreck his mind. And who's going to root for the player guy getting with that intelligent cute girl?

My point is that as you get older you realize that letting your business out into the world only makes things harder on you and your loved ones. I admit, I have FB and twitter but when I'm having fun, enjoying my night I'm nowhere near a computer or my phone. I'm not updating the world on what I'm doing because I'm too busy doing it!

Can we just go back to those times when we would take out a camera and snap pictures while everyone was enjoying themselves and not necessarily posing, going to the drugstore to develop those pictures, and frame the pictures or put them in albums for us and those that we took the pictures with to enjoy?

I swear, all I see are people trying to hard to impress people that aren't even important. Me and Steven took two pictures together and then went back to enjoying each other. Those pictures went up today (or actually yesterday since it's already 3am), not right after we took them!

I can keep going on and on about social networking sites. I use them, sure, but I don't abuse them. My "friends" don't need to know everything about my life. It's just not necessary. Leave some mystery! People that went to school with me believe I am a sweet, smart girl that would never get involved with drugs or alcohol. They believe I am very innocent. And I am not about to prove them wrong.

Reputation is important. One day it will either get you a job or make you lose your job opportunities

I got so off topic! But here's Big Bang so it makes up for it.

The Night Before the Date

I'm so excited to see Steven tomorrow (well, later, really)!! I swear he saw me all senior year looking beautiful or a straight up bum in school but now I make so much effort so that my face looks amazing.

After my shower I decided to use Freeman's Pineapple Facial Enzyme Mask again this time. I couldn't tell a difference the last time I used it so I decided to wash it off with a wash cloth so I could at least get some exfoliation from it. It says it "restores radiant skin" but I don't know how.

I actually really like the little sample of Premier's Cinderella Mask I got from my February Glam Bag. It made my skin super soft, hydrated, and free of oil for a few hours. The only problem was that when I got home I noticed a zit on my forehead. Nothing major since it was making its first appearance. I'm not sure whether it was from the Pineapple Mask or the Cinderella Mask.

Anyway, aside from the mask I didn't do anything else special with my face. Since we are going out and I'll be doing something Saturday too I decided to straighten my hair. I love having my hair straight but it really takes a long time! And because of that I like to know that I will get the full benefit of having pretty hair by having people see it on the two days that it looks nice.

I don't know what it is but when my hair is straight it gets greasier faster. I really try not to touch the roots and brush it whenever I can but it still gets nasty by the end of the second day. I could still go out with it on the third day but I feel icky.

Not to mention that no matter what I do to my hair nothing will actually keep it as beautifully straight as when I first straighten it! I do use John Frieda's Frizz-Ease 3-Day Straight which keeps all the major kinks out of my hair but I still do need to iron the ends straight if I sleep without a dubee.

Sigh. I work so hard to make it look effortless.

What did I do today? Nothing, really. All the paint was bought late but my mom still wanted to paint her room like the loca that she is. I'm not that impulsive so I just waited for my fried bacalao and kept finding more cute blogs to follow.

That is something I did today! I began following lots of blogs that are interested in Japanese fashion. And I also started wondering why I keep a Facebook and a Twitter when it pains me to look at either of the feeds. I feel physically ill every time. I just got my Facebook in August and I just can't.

Also, is it possible to hire a woman to live in my house and thread my eyebrows? Threading makes it so my hairs don't grow back for a week (unlike plucking and waxing). Plus, it is nowhere near as painful.

I have nothing to talk about. =/ Steven was being super cute today when I talked to him. Oh! Since his birthday is during baseball season I have decided to get us tickets to a Red Sox v. Yankees game! So exciting. We're both Red Sox fans and we both love Dustin Pedroia so I can't imagine doing anything more fun with him. Plus, it is a Sunday game so if we could be there for the weekend just to chill in Boston it would be perfect.

I'm really just excited to see him tomorrow. And to come up with a nice makeup look. I have no false lashes anymore (I threw them away when I was moving) so I'll have to pack on the mascara. Maybe I'll do a very sultry golden goddess type of thing. That sounds so weird. We're not going anywhere fancy but I still want to look nice for him.

Isn't that so weird? This is a guy that was basically my best guy friend my senior year of high school (and who simultaneously had a crush on me) and now we're talking about being in a relationship. Isn't that almost every girl's dream? For her to date her best friend?

I do admit it is a bit bittersweet. I mean, I know about his past and his last girlfriend. I actually met her and thought she was very nice. I gave Steven advice as how to make his relationship with her work. So now whenever I'm with him I have a stupid bug in the back of my mind that wonders if he still thinks about her. Does anything that I do remind him of her?

It's just something that no one tells you about this kind of relationship. But I'm still happy. He seems to really be into me and has something new to tell me that he likes about me. So I guess unless either one of those change I don't have anything to worry about.